it's a change of pace to see my face

i'm incredibly sleepy, yet completely restless.
i haven't done my laundry or any homework, but that's okay i'll get back on top soon.
but anyways, i went to buffalo yesterday to do a little shopping, which actually became a lot
seeing as i came home with about 600$ worth of clothes and shoes.
i still don't feel set for the fall, and i keep consistently spending money which is totally insane,
since i have almost none to begin with.
which made me think about how i haven't asked for money from my parents for half a year.
how i'm affording shit, i have no idea.
i'm getting paid in about 16 days, so i'm quite excited.
i'm also excited to start working fulltime again in a year,
ie. next april-sept
although it's extremely far away i just want to be cakin'
yesterday i bought, a million jeans(just 5)
2 reg leggings
like 8 sweaters
3 tops
a pair of boots
and 7 bras hahaha
i probably got some more but i can't really remember.
oh yeah a few skirts and shit
pretty excited!
i really need a closet because i don't even know what i own anymore my plan is to get like
2 or 3 of these, probably 3

  • Forever 21 Grey Hoodie cut off & cuffed sweater


lace is an essential, although i'm not a fan of just lace on myself aka like pure seethrough, see skin equals no no.
since i am s00o0o0o0o0o0o0o modest i only like layered lace, like lace over on under dresses, or partial lace cardigans or lace tights.
i have these dream store lists, also known as a huge problem for myself seeing as i am always online shopping without the actual shopping since i don't have a credit card, which i want to get, but i'm iffy because if i do get one, i will be broke as shit in like 2 days, and then have a huge ass debt to pay off.
so for now, i must beg and beg my dad to let me use his credit card and give him the cash which he doesn't like me doing because he doesn't like me shopping in general.
i honestly feel like i have no clothes, but when i clean my room all i see is clothes piled everywhere.
i think what it is, is that i'll love an item/s for a long time and re wear it often, but after about 2 weeks i'll get bored and just want a new outfit, which actually happens quite often.
i also hoard clothes, because there is always times where i'm like o0o0oh i remember that top/dress/etcetera where is it?!?! oh right, that was thrown out/given to good will.
like theres this one cardigan with one of those coloured arm bands that i really really loved for a whole summer, two summers ago. but now i have no idea where it is, and have been looking for it for the past 2 months, i can't remember if i gave it away or it just went missing :(
i really need a closet, i'm so sad that all my clothes is askew everywhere.
finding an outfit everyday is so stressful and tiring i have no idea where any of my things are.
i've noticed two things about myself 1. i wear a lot, and i do mean A LOT of blue, or i just own a lot i'm not sure. and 2. i don't wear anything but skirt, top, cardigan or dress and cardigan outfits. i rarely wear jeans, i'm not sure i just don't like them. i went through this huge phase 2 years ago where all i wore was jeans, a top and a hoodie. how lame. thus, now i never wear jeans, and hoodies are only worn in winter or traveling since there so comfy and warm.
plans for the weekend slash every weekend but never works out are to clean and organize my bedroom and figure out outfits.
this is my outfit of the day, also i haven't worn those wedges since the weekend i bought them aka montreal aka july, they were only worn for like 3 days.
they needed a trip out before fall comes around.

just chillin at work haha

my aunt took this, i honestly think she is the most handicapped person ever she has no idea how to use focus hahaha <3

here's a close up on my shoes that make no sense cause here in a weird position because i have no idea how to use self timer on my camera and just clicked it awkwardly haha.=
  • White Cardigan Aritzia
  • Blue Tank Dress Aritzia
  • Black Lace Panel Leggings Urban Planet
  • White Lace Tank Urban Outfitters
  • Pink Purse Forever 21
  • Studded Strap Wedges Aldo
  • Clock Locket Urban Outfitters

count the steps from where i am to where i started

i've noticed my clothing doesn't match well with weather/season etcetera.
i guess in the fashion industry i would be considered as very confused seeing as i will go out in the freezing winter, with a foot full of snow on the ground in tights, shorts, raglan and canvas shoes along with my big winter coat, but still not appropriate for the snow.
another thing i always do is wear huge ass sweaters & cardigans made with full and for the winter season, in the summer. today would be a good example (okay technically this was yesterday) but anyways i wore that sweater today too. it's somewhat batwinged and huge and warm, like melting warm, but it's so cute and i bought it last month and only started wearing it well, yesterday. anyways my point is, i don't believe in fashion season trends, i'll wear whatever i like whenever i like, another example, looking like i came from a funeral with my black lace dress on a beautiful sunny day with beautiful flowers in the background. but yes, i'm gonna cut off my run on sentences and ramblin and go watch the gates. <3

oh you're in my veins, and i cannot get you out.

i love grass and nature, i hate shitty quality, brightness, odd tones and other obscuritys
i wore my black lace dress out with leggings, construction socks, mocs and my favourite pink purse.
sorry for the the shitty quality, more photos of more outfits soon!


  • Lace Dress Forever 21
  • Black Leggings Urban Planet
  • Construction Socks Zellers
  • Mocs Soft Moc
  • Pink Purse Forever 21

and watch me tremble

I actually have never worn this out, probably because one i personally feel like it's a little long seeing as it comes down past my knees, which i hate because it's stuck in between that awkward length of a full length dress, and a short mini dress and then i have nostalgic feelings of grade nine when i had my kilt down to my knees like a little nun because my mom forced me, and i cried all morning. it was totally embarrassing but anyways, i'm not much of a fan of that shade of blue, i'm more of a seafoamy or even closer to mint. another reason is because i hate extreme cleavage, maybe in the past i didn't care but now i am so conservative.........................................just kidding, but really i hate extreme cleavage on myself so i don't really like that haha. i do love that tiny dark jean vest and the stud ring i got last year, and now have no idea where it went.
pro's about this dress is;
+ i got it at the first american apparel sale for $8
+ it's extremely versatile seeing as i can wear it a whole bunch of different ways
+ although i hate the length of it, i can easily hem and fix it yet i am totally lazy.

  • Blue Dress American Apparel
  • Jean Vest Value Village
  • Stud Ring Urban Outfitters

searching for the thrill of it

I haven't blogged in a while, too stressed with college starting and overwhelmed with how intense this program is, I completely assumed it would be relatively relaxed and an easy concept, it isn't there are way too many things to learn in this short period of time that has been three days, first how to use the new equipment, aka mac book pro & nikon d300s.
after first of all, being a pc kinda girl for the past 18 years, the macbook is a little overwhelming.
also belonging in the canon company for the past 4 years with my slr, the nikon really does stump me. even after attempting to read the manual i'm still confused on how to upload photos. it is really interesting i've learned how to connect my camera to the light's in the studio and that was fun. also learning portrait lighting, another very fun thing. i've never been one to use photoshop seeing as i never had the opportunity to use/own it besides a few comtech classes. but anyways, enough about school.
i did a bit of shopping the other day and haven't got around to posting photos although i am completely in love with my new pink bag, photos shall come along soon hopefully, once my life is relaxed a tad.
below is a simple blue dress thrifted from value village, it's actually a really long blue skirt with buttons running down from top to bottom but, i am too lazy to hem skirts and i liked it much more as a dress. since it was a skirt it had no shape to it and went straight down, but paired with a cute black belt it has a loose fitting shape above the belt once you pull it out, and flows down.

  • Blue Dress/Skirt Value Village
  • Black Braided Belt Value Village
  • Flower Necklace Forever 21